Hey guys!
It's 2010 and I'm back from my break.
I hope everyone had a fantastic holiday break, and celebrated the New Year with style!
My break was great, we were staying in such a beautiful part of New Zealand, and it was almost heavenly. If anyone wants to visit NZ, they have to travel to Mimiwhangata!
I did however get terribly sunburnt... and it was pretty bad. I'm still only just recovering.
SOOOO 2010!!!! A brand New Year, time to forget the mistakes of my past... and prepare to make a whole load of new ones! I'm really excited, the great thing about the start of a new year, is that you really can have a go at recreating yourself.
It's going to be somewhat easier for me, as I have no job, and I've dropped out of uni... I have a completely blank slate, a new page in my book, to rewrite who I am, what I want and where I'm going.
Major goal for 2010: PARIS. It is now set in my head. In September this year, I will be a Parisian! Scary thought! But I'm sooooo incredily excited. I have started my networking with locals and the search for where I want to live. I have a lot of work to do by September, but I am fully prepared for everything I have to do to get me to Paris.
So, my dear readers... Stick around this year, I can promise you it is going to be tumultuous and messy, but I will document my life and my actions as best I can. Life, after all, is for living! I hope you will enjoy following me through this new and wonderful year!
Lukas x
(Ohh btw, I've now added a hit counter but it had to start at zero)
Showing posts with label Paris. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Paris. Show all posts
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Monday, December 14, 2009
To Paris?
Everything happens for a reason... there are many who would not agree with that statement. But in a way it makes total sense.
Chris did read my last post, and we met and talked for awhile. I think it went well, and in the end I realized that what I wanted to happen, and reality were two different things. The reality is that Chris is searching for himself, and that doesn't include me.
I'm not hurt nor do I have any grudges towards him. Chris is doing what he needs to do, and I respect that. He has my love wherever life takes him. But, for now at least, our paths are not crossing. I am positive that good things will come for him, he is a good person and I love him dearly.
Chris, you better text me Merry Christmas! You don't need to completely ignore me rid me from your life!
And so, my dear reader(s), you may be asking yourself "what now?". Well as my earlier post suggested, I am going to leave New Zealand. Though I have had some great experiences here, I have also had many bad ones (just go back and read my earlier posts!) and I think I need to change my location. I'm not running, don't think of it like that. I have nothing to run from anyway. I'm worth nothing to nobody, only family, and they will love me no matter where I am in the world. So no, I'm not running. But I am seeking something.
I'm not too sure what that is exactly... maybe I'm looking for love, the real love that is worth everything and is unconditional and unwavering. Or perhaps I am seeking some sense of atonement, a sense of spirituality.
I think my future will see someone who believes in me, as much as I believe in others. I have to hope that I am worth that much. And maybe I'm not, but hope is a powerful thing.
So mon cher, my new goal is Paris, like I had planned. Why Paris? Paris is where romance is born. Paris will be where I see love, not just in it's people, but feel it in it's atmosphere and breathe it in. Paris is my city, Paris is where my heart longs to be. Who knows how Paris will treat me, who knows if it will respect me as I respect it and treat it with awe. But for now, all I know is that Paris is where I shall be within a year.
I will hang from hotel windows, drinking absinthe and singing about love and how I believe in love above all things! (Ohh wait, that is basically the plot for Moulin Rouge). Viva La Vie Boheme!
My love is with you Chris... remember the lyrics to the song, I mean them just as much as all my other words. If it's too much to bare, I'll be here, sitting at the keyboard and writing away. I am yours for as long as is needed... I will be here if you need me.
Forever and always, my dear readers...
Your friend Lukas
Chris did read my last post, and we met and talked for awhile. I think it went well, and in the end I realized that what I wanted to happen, and reality were two different things. The reality is that Chris is searching for himself, and that doesn't include me.
I'm not hurt nor do I have any grudges towards him. Chris is doing what he needs to do, and I respect that. He has my love wherever life takes him. But, for now at least, our paths are not crossing. I am positive that good things will come for him, he is a good person and I love him dearly.
Chris, you better text me Merry Christmas! You don't need to completely ignore me rid me from your life!
And so, my dear reader(s), you may be asking yourself "what now?". Well as my earlier post suggested, I am going to leave New Zealand. Though I have had some great experiences here, I have also had many bad ones (just go back and read my earlier posts!) and I think I need to change my location. I'm not running, don't think of it like that. I have nothing to run from anyway. I'm worth nothing to nobody, only family, and they will love me no matter where I am in the world. So no, I'm not running. But I am seeking something.
I'm not too sure what that is exactly... maybe I'm looking for love, the real love that is worth everything and is unconditional and unwavering. Or perhaps I am seeking some sense of atonement, a sense of spirituality.
I think my future will see someone who believes in me, as much as I believe in others. I have to hope that I am worth that much. And maybe I'm not, but hope is a powerful thing.
So mon cher, my new goal is Paris, like I had planned. Why Paris? Paris is where romance is born. Paris will be where I see love, not just in it's people, but feel it in it's atmosphere and breathe it in. Paris is my city, Paris is where my heart longs to be. Who knows how Paris will treat me, who knows if it will respect me as I respect it and treat it with awe. But for now, all I know is that Paris is where I shall be within a year.
I will hang from hotel windows, drinking absinthe and singing about love and how I believe in love above all things! (Ohh wait, that is basically the plot for Moulin Rouge). Viva La Vie Boheme!
My love is with you Chris... remember the lyrics to the song, I mean them just as much as all my other words. If it's too much to bare, I'll be here, sitting at the keyboard and writing away. I am yours for as long as is needed... I will be here if you need me.
Forever and always, my dear readers...
Your friend Lukas
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